Maybe sometimes you are better off not knowing.
So, today I have a graduation ceremony for a core graduate program I attended this year. So, I am kinda excited about it. I am, of course, as with any day, hoping my little diabetic's blood glucose numbers cooperate.
Her fasting blood glucose number was great. And I should have left well enough alone. But just as she was walking out the door to get on the bus I took one last peek at the CGM and sure enough it is 174 with the slight arrow trending upward.
Well, all I can do is hope for the best. I have 110% faith in her school nurse to properly manage any situation as I will be a bit tied up today.
Maybe it will be OK. Maybe it was just the post-breakfast spike. Maybe? I hope.
In all likelihood it will be OK but that is not going to stop me from worrying about it all day. And by the end of the day I will find out everything was fine and I will have spent the entire day worrying for nothing.
It would be so nice if I could take the type 1 diabetes for her and then I wouldn't have to worry about this all day long. I would be more than happy to carry this burden for her. In fact, I would welcome it. Then I would worry less, be happy for my healthy children and know that I could monitor glucose levels at all times to satisfy my almost obsessive "need to know!"
Keep your fingers crossed for us today that all works out!